By the time I hit my mid twenties, my desire for a family was overwhelming. The dating and partying was quickly growing old... and then I met L's papa. I even told him on our first date (after a few drinks) that I wanted five kids, and he called the next day to remind me of what I had said! It all went pretty quickly after that... the ring, the house, L and the 'I dos' (in that order). And just like that I had it all. With another beautiful baby on the way in September, I have it all... If only it were that simple...
Things seemed so perfect until all of a sudden they weren't so perfect. I'm left with so many questions... (and so many ellipses). What happens when mama and papa just can't seem to get along? What happens when mama and papa simply coexist for the sake of L and baby to be? What then? Can coexisting work? Does it benefit the children? Or does it eventually just grow sour and fall apart? Can it be fixed? How?
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May be its just your hormones...It all happened at once and so fast...you never had the time to stop and enjoy each moment. Its overwhelming. Try to take it one day at a time, easier said than done, I know. As I've said to you before, count your blessings not your troubles.
ReplyDeleteLook at me. I am a single mom. I want the ring, the house, more babies...I guess I want your dream... But is the grass always greener on the other side?
We always want something MORE. Why can't we just enjoy and appreciate what we have in front of us?
You have your DREAM. LIVE IT!
You're right. And I know you're going to say that I'm crazy but I've looked at you so many times and thought about how lucky you are. Yes. The grass is always greener on the other side!
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